As a recovering anorexic, I was having bodily complications from starving myself. My stomach ached, my left side hurt, my chest hurt, I had to breathe in really sudden gasps, and my left leg felt like it was plunged into a bucket of ice water. I went downstairs to my bedroom to pray. I begged God for help, because I knew I couldn’t fight anorexia alone; I’d die. I asked him for help to get me through. In addition to the pain, I was cold and tired, hunched over in the fetal position on my bed, wrapped in a blanket. All of a sudden, I felt this massive sense of peace, and I rolled over farther onto my right side and tried to continue my prayer, but I, seemingly involuntarily, closed my eyes. I was wide awake, but I just suddenly closed my eyes. And I saw God. I know for an absolute fact it wasn’t my imagination because there is absolutely no way I could imagine something that vibrant, that beautiful, that pure. The Holy Spirit came to me; all I could focus on was this dove, glowing and white, with what appeared to be a golden glow on His back and the back of His wings. He would fly in circles, come closer to me, and then fly in circles again. This went on a few more times. Sometimes, the glow on His back and wings intensified, and I saw what almost looked like the sun behind Him. Light started to stream around His head and wings. My pain had completely subsided and I was no longer depressed, cold, or anxious. I cried and couldn’t stop saying "Oh, my Lord…so beautiful…thank You…"After a while, He raised His wings skyward and flew up, and as soon as I opened my eyes, out of nowhere, I burst out laughing. I couldn’t stop laughing. When I got up, I was trembling and had to clutch my dresser on my way out to stay upright.
This is by far the most amazing experience I have ever had, and I wanted to share it with all of you. I’m going to devote the rest of my life to the Holy Spirit now.