I am a 16 year old guy, and am discerning, but I have stumbled onto a problem which leads to a much bigger problem. I struggle to feel God. In a sense, I feel as if my prayers are just words being murmured to my conscience, because I feel no different after praying, whether it be for 5 minutes or 30. I struggle to meditate. It’s not that I fail to visualize things, it’s that I don’t feel anything - I only see them. And because of this all combined, I feel no sorrow when I repent of sins, yet I know I am sorry, because I make attempts not to sin, and get frustrated when I do sin, but then when I try to pour my heart out (outside of confession), I just don’t feel anything. I was last at confession about 2 weeks ago, and felt sorrowful then, and the next night I was at adoration (this was all on a retreat), but for the past days I have just not felt right. Should I go back to confession and/or adoration as soon as possible? Those 2 things are what I would say influence my faith life the most, but currently I just feel empty, like God isn’t there, when I know He is.
Any links/tips to help me meditate and better understand repentance maybe? I just fee angry and terrible about this all and want it to end but don’t know what to do.