Hello everyone, so this might be a bit of a wall of text, I apologize if that is the case.
I have been addicting to pornography and masturbation for a while now, but I am finally starting to get out of it, and am doing well so far.
But now I have a new concern: my love life in the future. I saw some statistics where 98% of couples or something like that has sex before marriage. I want to avoid having sex before marriage, but not for a reason I’m proud of. Which is not for the faith, but so that my parents would not be disappointed with me.
But I am interested in several women, some of which are not religious, so chances are if I got in a relationship, they would want to have sex. So I am struggling with the urge to do so with my past of pornography, but I don’t because of the guilt I would end up feeling.
Another concern was living together before marriage. One of the most crucial things to find out in a relationship is, can you love and do life together on a daily basis? Well if it’s a sin to live together before marriage, how can I be sure I can do ‘daily’ life with someone? And what if they are unhappy because of this? What if I lose someone special because these things get in the way?
Sorry if this wasn’t very lucidly written, but that’s pretty much what my brain is like at the moment. Any clarity would be appreciated.
As a side note, I am a 17 year old guy, so I am just starting to try and figure all of this stuff out.