Hi I haven’t posted on this site in a while but I desperately need some help :(. I have been going back and forth in my mind while trying to discern God’s will. And I recognize the need to get in touch with a priest or spiritual director which I promise I am in the process of doing right now. I was just hoping someone could give me some of their personal insight .
Few things about me: I am a Catholic convert (Baptized, Confirmed April 2009) and I am also a single mother. I am a couple months shy of 21 and my son is currently 15 months old. I am about to receive an Associate’s Degree this semester and I will be transferring to a university, most likely to pursue an engineering degree (it was nursing but I realized nursing isn’t for me). I currently do not work. My parents have been tremendously generous in allowing me to stay at home while I finish school.
I pray everyday, I have read “Discernment of Spirits” by Father Gallagher. I am trying to get myself to go to Adoration more. I feel that God is stirring something in my heart right now (i.e. calling me to do something) but I can not entirely pinpoint what it is. I may be called to become a member of Opus Dei but of course wont know until I get in touch with someone.
I do know that I have been thinking about marriage a lot (as I have for most of my life) but it seems like God may be calling me to remain single…forever.
And I don’t mean to sound like I am pouting but I don’t want to be single forever! :dts: I mean shoot I even met this guy last week and even if our friendship never progressed into something more, the whole thought of being able to fall in love and share my life with someone in marriage and help them get to Heaven got me all excited but then I immediately became distraught because perhaps it isn’t what God wants.
Don’t get me wrong, I really want to want God’s will. And I truly want to love and serve my son and do what’s best for him. I guess if it really is God’s Will for me to remain single then I need some help overcoming these childish feelings. I humbly ask for your prayers! And thank you in advance for your help!