Our dear brother in Christ Sam,
Your friends have been praying for you. I realise how hard it is for you to convert to Catholicism in SA. but have you thought about approaching a church to actually get baptized my friend? I understand your family, relations etc are living there, but remember when Jesus said to the apostles, come with me and they left their comfort zone to do the duty of God. Have you thought of going to the USA, England or Australia to lead the life you can? Im only suggesting this cause all your friends care about you and want you to be safe. There is no reason you will not be able to visit your family. You can still enter sa but just dont take a bible, show you used to live there and im sure they wont ask your religion if you dress as a muslim, but deep down your catholic? i know it sounds crazy, and i know in your heart your a Catholic, but its more special when you can receive the eucharist. But on the other hand, you know Jesus is with you and has led you to him, this is just a suggestion from me.
Anyone else got ideas how he can leave yet visit his family?