I have always been a late bloomer: I didn’t do my first communion until I was 14! However, I felt spiritually prepared and was eager to continue becoming a Catholic.
Ever since then, I’ve been wanting to be confirmed sooo badly! Unfortunately, some things kept delaying the process. I’m now in RCIA and I really like it. Except that now that zeal to become confirmed is gone. However, I still have faith- I *know *that their is a God, that He had a son, and that the Son established the Church. To me, there is no doubt about that…
…but now I’m questioning whether I really do want to get confirmed. And though generally I still want to, I don’t know why I’m questioning it.
I haven’t been able to pray about it-- I just can’t get myself to. Lately I’ve been skipping RCIA, though not because I want to, but because finals are approaching and school is becoming CRUCIAL! And last Sunday, I didn’t feel like going to mass. I seriously thought about skipping.To make matter worse, I didn’t attend mass on Monday-- which was, of course, a holy day of obligation. But I didn’t do it on purpose. I couldnt go to the mass because they were all scheduled during class time (I have three classes throughout Monday: from morning to night).
I know these are all excuses, but I don’t understand whats going on with me. I should have a sponsor by now, but am reluctant to ask the person I have in mind. I just don’t want to disappoint anyone if I decide not to go through with it…
… i dont know. Maybe this is how a bride feels when she’s going to get married?
Any help? Advice?
Prayers are greatly appreciated!
God bless and thank you!