[quote="Holly3278, post:1, topic:274555"]
... my Borderline Personality Disorder, and my Major Depression...
I can't say anything about the fybromyalgia but I have plenty to say about healing mental disorders. I had a severe case of BP (at least that's my label we used for SS Disability hearings) with onset in 2001. Luckily, a month after the onset, I met for the first time with a spiritual director, and that put me on the path to healing that finally is being made total now just in these past few weeks. It doesn't have to take that long, but I'm lucky because technically I'm "totally and permanently disabled," but now I'm also healed. Not "under control," or "symptom-free," but healed.
We have to be a bit careful about giving psychiatric advice on these fora because of liability issues for CAF, but I can say some generic things. If you want to go more into detail, feel free to PM me and we will find a place to discuss it where liability won't be a problem.
First, about the onset and how my SD (first time I'd ever met with one) got me started on the road to sanity. The first thing that I struck me after I was involuntarily, anonymously, and without being given reason, "captured" and locked in a psychiatric ward, was how crazy the "doctors" and the staff were. The could "observe" but they didn't know how to "listen." Especially the third-rate interns they had working there -- they'd ask stupid questions like "why are you here," and when I said, "I don't know. Nobody will tell me why I'm here or on whose orders," they wrote "refused to answer" on their sheet and increased my medication.
So my first question to my SD a month after that was, "why are they so crazy? Why can't they understand anything I say, including the answers to their own questions?"
Father Pecht smiled and paused, then said, "the problem is that the experts are too specialized. A human being has six components: physical, mental, spiritual, emotional, sexual (tied most closely to self identity), and social. Experts are only trained in one or two of these areas, so whatever is wrong with you, they look at you from their own narrow perspective and try to treat you as if it were all about whatever they are expert in."
That's how my healing started; at least it made sense then. Through a great deal of prayer, especially contemplative prayer, other spiritual exercises, use of many resources both Catholic and non-Catholic, finding a good psychiatrist who didn't assume everything like the lousy interns, and much, much love and patience from my wife and six kids, etc. etc. now I am healed.
[quote="Holly3278, post:4, topic:274555"]
I have tried medication and therapy but they aren't helping enough. They do help but not quite enough.
They can be useful and even life-saving, but medicine has its limitations in the area of mental illness. The medicine helps with the symptoms, but the healing comes from God, at His schedule and manner, depending in part on how open you can make yourself to His healing touch by the Holy Spirit, aka the Divine Therapist.
My psychiatrist looks at medicine like a cast on a leg. The cast does not heal the leg, but it holds things in place so the leg can undergo its own healing process (from God). So when I am manic, I tend to lose sleep which is unhealthy in itself plus worsens the mania, so he gives me tranquilizers or whatever so I can sleep, and maybe anti-psychotics to help with the delusions. When I am depressed, he gives me antidepressants which help me not be quite so miserable and vegetative, but again it's treating the symptoms and not healing at the root like what God can do.
I could write books on all of this, and I am lucky to be one of the very few I know of who was as sick as I was and am no longer. My pastor and my doctor are both ecstatic about my progress and I'm on very low amount of medication now.