…If i said I wasn’t drunk while I was posting this. I am. And this is when I’m at my most vulnerable. Hear me out.
I want to be Catholic. In my heart of hearts I do. I’m a young adult, and basically my dad has blackmailed me into not becoming one, But I do believe it’s Christi’s church,
I feel driven away. I feel persecuted. I’m weeping (drunk as i am) while I write this. I don’t know what to do. I tried to think about doing RCIA and not telling them, because I live in another state. But htey would find out. I’m being dead serious. I ned advice.
I am literally blackmailed because to a point im still financially dependent on my partent, And I do love them. But i need the eucharist. I need Christ. I do. I want to honor my parents, and i can’t just join cause they’d disown me. I go to mass sometimes. I love it. I LOVE IT!
I know the Bible and stuff says not to dirk too much as stuff. I’m sorry. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I long for the day I can join. If this is weird I’m sorry. But I need help.