I feel at peace and have joy in my heart when I follow the steps of Jesus. However, my work environment is filled with lots of gossip and popularity contests. I enjoy being friendly with an “outcast” coworker simply because she is so nice, Christian, and values my friendship. It is so easy to get lured into the nonsense gossip circle. (so far, I am minding my own business! I know it is wrong! Thank you, Jesus!)
Question 1: For some reason, my prayer life is slipping. I was focusing on being more spiritual. Listening to Catholic radio as much as possible, saying the rosary and other prayers, etc. Well, that has fallen by the wayside. I have gotten caught up in my secular hobbies again. It feels so good to get a compliment when I do well. (I do remember to thank Jesus for my gifts.) But, I don’t want these hobbies because they take time away from Jesus and make me competitve and Type A. I would rather be humble than Type A. (Plus, it doesn’t feel so good physically to be so competitive all the time.) So, the question is, has anyone ever had to cut back or give up a hobby b/c it made them too competitive and/or separated them from GOD?
Question 2: Well, I was involved on a secular messageboard. And it turns out some girl from my college days was mentioning me in a not-so-flattering light. Nothing BAD ever happened between us- please note that! (She only used my first name, but she did give the university and other associations which could easily lead to me.) I am kinda mad for having my real name brought up. It is disrespectful. (She is entitled to her memories, but it’s not cool to give away my identity.) For me, I don’t like to include anyone in particular when I bring up stories from the past. It seems disrespectful to the people IF you give away clues to their true identity. But now, after reading what this woman posted, I almost feel like, "Why am I bothering to be respectful of all people? Why do I bother to forgive others? Why do I try not to gossip?"
I feel like I am doing what’s right- forgiving, respecting, refraining from gossip. So, the second question is, has anyone else ever felt like they are getting dumped on because they were trying to live the “right” way?
I’d appreciate any insight!