I know this sounds silly, but i’m 23 and i’ve never been in a relationship. I’ve been on plenty of dates, but only once have I been on more than one date with the same girl (I made it to 3 dates, but it didn’t work out, though I think it might have been for the better, though I wonder sometimes why it didn’t work).
Anyway, a lot of times it seems that these girls say I lack chemistry. Like I’m more of a friend than someone who they could be in a relationship with. It makes me wonder whether God is saying I should be a priest. Maybe since i’m friendly with so many people, thats what I should do. Its strange because for the longest time, at least for the past 2 years I was convinced that my vocation was marriage. However, due to my last attempt at dating, as well as homilies about the missions and the priesthood, I wonder if maybe I am called.
I still feel I’d have trouble being a priest though. i just feel it would be too difficult, also I’m a person who needs people, and a lot of times priests talk about solitude though a lot of times I am alone, though its more to the fact my friends are far away now that I am out of school. I also don’t think a monk would work either even though it is more communal. I also feel that I want to be open to marriage, but singlehood isn’t much of a vocation, and at this rate i’ll be single until i’m 40.
I know i’m young, but there are already people 2 years younger than me who are married. At my Newman Center at the school I went to, all but 3 of our 12 council members are either married engaged or in a relationship, and the one female single is definitely not interested in me or anyone else. I don’t know what i’m called to. I used to think marriage, but I wonder if God has made me struggle with women so I can focus more on him?