I suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder and I obsessively pray, confess my sins and preach! I am also very apologetic - in both senses of the word! I have probably said the act of contrition a hundred times today! I go to confession weekly and sometimes twice a week because I fear sacrilege of holy Communion! I consider every sin as a grave sin and any nudity I see is the sin of pornography. I have anxiety attacks about the smallest things! The intrusive thoughts I have are racist or that I am a homo or other sexual thoughts. I also have dumb urges like driving into oncoming traffic. I preach so much that I drive fundamentalists around the bend and you know when it says in the gospel that if people don’t accept your message that you must dust your sandals off as a warning, well…I have other people dusting their sandals off at me. The most amazing part of my psycho spiritual disorder is that my Archangel Raphael is the Archangel of insanity and mentally ill people which seemed strange to me until I discovered that I had obsessive compulsive disorder. I also see this illness as a gift of mystical suffering, a share in the Passion of Christ, a spiritual crown of thorns.
What should I do? Accept it as my cross to bear or pray for healing?:shrug: