I’m thinking that I probably have a vocation to some sort of celibate life of service to God, so I want to go visit a few convents and a lay apostolate soon. I’ve actually already booked my visit to the lay apostolate. I became involved with them through one of their missions in my city, and I just can’t get enough of volunteering there, which is part of the reason I’m going to visit their main house later this summer. But I don’t really like the foundress. I don’t really know why. There isn’t anything about her that I can pinpoint and say, for this specific reason, I don’t like her. And she’s been dead for a while so it’s not like I’ve even met her. But the community is great and the staff I’ve met at the mission are the most God fearing people I’ve met. They’re just amazing Christians and so full of joy, so I don’t allow myself to think of the whole apostolate with this dislike. But all the staff seem to have a certain devotion to the foundress, and she is possibly going to be canonized as a saint.
So, would it be really stupid to even consider joining a community where the foundress just kind of annoys you? I just love and really relate to their spirituality and charism, but the foundress. Her written works and what I’ve read about her, I dunno she just rubs me the wrong way. But I love everything else about this place. And I’m afraid to tell you guys what apostolate it is I’m talking about because I don’t want anyone to get the idea that this foundress is a bad Christian or not good for some reason, because I could be way off base or being deceived or something. I really don’t know.