I have been coming to this forum for about a year now. Although I just began posting last month. I believe I may have been better off prior to coming on here. And here are my reasons.
I had no idea what a liturgical abuse was. Now I do. At Mass I can barely focus on the Mass because I am distracted when I see something that is abusive. If you read my other posts you can see that I am an EMHC. I am trying to get one abuse changed, but when asking for help on CAF, I get horror stories about never getting results. So why even bother trying to change things? Me against the entire diocese? Is it pointless?
I never knew what the SSPX was and really still don’t know all the details other than they believe that the RCC is…… lost is the best way I can put it. I have an uncle that is SSPX and very devout. He always has been. My other uncle, his brother, is a priest. They barely see one another because of the SSPX thing. The SSPX uncle NEVER goes to a Mass that his brother celebrates.
I never knew about the Eastern churches that are not in communion with Rome and that they have problems with the RCC.
Lately I am reading that some Catholics don’t believe that the Pope has any true control over the Church and that he cannot do anything about the Bishops who won’t stay inline with Church doctrine.
I recently posted about a book on EWTN. About how EWTN is too modernist and spreading the “silent apostasy”. This book is being advertised on a Fatima website with a letter from a priest saying we should all read it. So I have a Catholic TV channel (with priests on it) saying one thing and a priest saying another. Who to believe?
Seems like everyone has problems with the Church. Now I always knew that Protestants did. It seems like the Church is splintering from reading some of the threads on here.
On the positive side I have learned a lot about my faith on CAF. But I am wondering if I am better off in the end. I worry about the Church now when I did not before. I question who is right who is wrong. I always had blind faith in the Church and now my mind has become clouded. It seems so depressing to read about the above items.
I know this is not much of a question more of a statement of my feelings. I have always prayed for just one thing for myself. That was to have a strong and unquestioning faith. After coming here I am questioning everything.
It seems as if there is no end to the problems. I don’t even know what to pray for as I have no clue as to who is right and who is wrong. I just pray the Pope will figure it all out and solve all of the problems.
Does anyone else get dis-heartened while reading the items I have described? It just seems life was simpler before I came to CAF. Now I worry all the time.