As a relatively brand new Catholic, I continue to be amazed at the number of people who just want to do things their own way, regardless of the issue. It does seem that most of the issues around here fall into the sex category, whether that be sex with one’s self, sex before marriage, out of marriage, with the same sex, or abortion. But why? I was listening to Fr Larry Richards’ talk on Confession today (again) and I’ve been reading the Ven Louis of Grenada’s The Sinner’s Guide. I understand that the underlying sin in this is Pride, but I’m having a hard time understanding the stubborn clinging to that Pride.
Why do we think that we KNOW and UNDERSTAND better than anyone else? Why do we believe that “If I think it’s okay, then it’s okay”?
It seems to me that we should be praying for the grace to live according to God’s plan rather than keep trying to alter the plan itself.
When I was 18, I KNEW what right and wrong were; I chose to go against God’s plan. It was a conscious decision. The first big sin was hard, it hurt my conscience, made me a little sick, right along with the pleasure. But I learned that if I just ignored that hurt and sick feeling, that I could rub the edge right off my conscience. I could numb my soul to God’s voice.
I pray that all of us receive the grace to hear and believe with our souls.