I enjoyed reading the thread about the young woman wanting to be a priest. It prompted me to post about my problem.
I can identify with wanting to be a priest. I'm a female and I think being a priest would be awesome. I know women are not permitted and I am not arguing for them to be permitted. I am obedient to the Church and I am very conservative (so please, don't anyone misunderstand my views). I have noticed in Protestant denominations, first it's women ministers, then it's gay ministers, etc. It's a downward slide to apostasy so I accept the fact that I cannot be called to the priesthood.
Here's my problem: :confused: I haven't figured out my vocation. I grew up as the daughter of a Protestant preacher. As a Protestant, I often thought of pursuing some sort of ministry and I struggled because it seemed like a no-brainer that I should do something in the church but I wasn't called. (It makes perfect sense to me now since God called me to the Catholic Church). Anyway, I became a Catholic last Easter and leading up to that point and for a few months afterwards, I had a burning desire to be a priest. I idolized priests and looked at them like rock stars. I was thinking it was the ultimate most awesome job a person could have. My motivation to wanting to be one had something to do with wanting to be close to God and wanting to help people and wanting to be like my newfound role model (my parish priest). I got over that thinking and I thought maybe it was my beginner's enthusiasm. However, some of the feelings have returned. I just love the Mass and I go often during the week. I wish I could hang out in the church building all the time (it was Jesus in the Tabernacle that first drew me to Catholicism).
So of course, I've wondered if I'm meant to be a nun (at the moment, I'm a lawyer but it's not a career I want forever). Here's a couple of issues: I'm not a good candidate for community living. I couldn't handle sharing a house with a bunch of people. I like my privacy and I have a pet so I can't see sisterhood happening. However, parish priests get to live alone in a rectory - - are there nuns/sisters that can live alone in an apartment or something? The other part of being a priest that appeals to me is preaching. My father is a preacher and I am energized by public speaking - - I truly believe I have a gift in this area. I'm a lector and catechism teacher at my church. Can a layperson be called to preach (I don't mean preaching during the Mass - - I mean preaching, as in speaking to groups, evangelizing - - preaching outside of Mass).
Maybe my questions are a bit dumb-sounding, but as a new Catholic, I'm truly clueless about vocation possibilities. I live in a small town so I don't see a lot of possibilities here.
Thanks for listening! :)