I converted to Catholicsm and was confirmed Easter 1999 and was a good catholic up until Lent 2009 when I left the church mad over something a priest told me in confession. I have bounced in and out of protestant churches and even made 2 attempts at rejoining the RCC within the last 5 years but I get bored, get mad at Rome-why I have NO IDEA, try to justify every protestant argument against the church’s teachings and leave again.
I NEED MAJOR SPIRITUAL HELP! I buy religious books from protestant groups, even bibles and then tear them apart and throw them away. Even ripped up the catechism of the Catholic Church once. I have partaken of communion in Lutheran, episcopal and Anglican churches. Also, Presbyterian. I have put down the pope in front of a Lutheran sunday school, even told my mother, a protestant who wanted to receive the Eucharist on Easter while visiting my sister’s Catholic church, the reasons she shouldn’t and kept saying, “well that’s what Rome believe…”
I am scared to die and go to Hell without the church’s grace or sacraments. I am mentally beat, exhausted and feel I have lost all identity and I am scared to go to confession to confess all this because I had one priest cut wise with me once when I confessed about my masturbation habit, almost as if I insulted him by confessing this.
These guys now intimidate me. Alone, twist and without direction. Somebody please pray for me and I have even mocked the wearing of the scapular. Someone point me towards a confessional. Thanks and God bless!