Okay, it goes like this:
Last Friday, I tried to confess all the sins I could remember. I was absolved. After a few hours later, I fell again and commited a couple venial sins PLUS remembered a couple more sins I forgot about while talking to the priest. Planned to go to Confession Saturday because the 20th was the big day!
Went to Confession for the second time on Sat. and confessed the sins I commited the previous day and the ones I forgot about on Friday.
On Sunday was the big day, I knew I was absolved from all sins. Recieved the Eucharist and was not aware of any sins all day Sunday.
Now Tuesday I just remembered a maybe-maybe-not mortal sin that I totally FORGOT and was UNAWARE of!! I was deeply troubled and was more scrupulous than ever and couldn’t remember if I said that sin and was even MORE scrupulous that I had to dig in the trashcan after shredding the “list of sins” and trying to find if I confessed that or not!!! See how crazy I am?
Turned out I DID confess that Friday and thought that the devil was getting on my case. GRRR!:mad: I also thought I was being a too-scrupulous young lady.
However, I was more deeply troubled when I just remembered another sin and hope that I didn’t commit a sacralige by recieving the Eucharist even though I was UNAWARE of it.
See how scruplous I am? Therefore, I was planning to go to a couple Daily Masses this week PLUS to the Thanksgiving Mass tomorrow but now I can’t because I just remembered another sin and WILL NOT recieve the Eucharist until I know I’m absoloved.
Is this also normal for a convert or is the devil doing everything and anything he can do to get me to be scrupulous than ever as well as not want me to go to Daily Mass?