How do I know I am called to marriage? How do I know if the man I’m engaged to is the one the Lord picked for me?
He is an amazing man but I met him while I was grieving and not emotionally available. I still don’t quite feel emotionally available but he doesn’t seem to care. We never argue, we enjoy each other’s company. We are music ministers together.and both Cursillestas.
I have always had a very unique relationship with Jesus. He is my love. I do not want to jeopardize that. I entered a convent when I was 19. I longed for intimacy with Jesus and the world around me but I struggled with so much while I was there that they sent me home. I’ve always felt like my relationship with Jesus is “exclusive” but I have problems being in solitude. I become very self-centered and miserable. I have to have people around. Plus, I suffer PTSD and need a lot of comforts that religious life doesn’t permit. Often I need to be taken care of (which my fiance willingly gives me). I can’t always cope with even day to day work without suffering fatigue and focus issues.
What are your thoughts? Does anyone have any insight to offer me/