Im falling into sins and doubts about the Catholic church is keeping me away from church

I havnt been to mass in a while and have stopped my daily prayers also

i am falling into mortal sins and giving in to impurity ,lust ,porn ,lots of gambling ,eating lots of junk food and smoking a real lot more latley

when i think about turning things around and living the church/christian life ,my doubts about the catholic church and whether it is authentic and true make me feel like ive given up on church ,and i dont bother getting back to the church

since my father became really ill and passed away a month ago ,i think im not dealing with it very well ,ive never had this experience of someone close to me dying

i ask for prayers from anyone here to get myself together again
im becoming self destructive

thank you

Praying hard for you.

You’ll be in mine my dear. You’ll get back. And you’re not at all alone. Though I’m sure it certainly feels like it. It’s been a month, you need some time. The fact I think that you’re asking for prayer, is a sign that you** haven’t **entirely given up. It’s all there. It’s just being blocked by the hurt.

I kind of feel like what I’m saying is sounding silly. It’s not my intention that I promise. You, your father, and your family, are in my prayers.

:console:

My rosary is dedicated to you today.

If possible, try to get together with a priest to discuss your situation. One that is good at this (ask around).

Prayer to Saint Joseph

Remember, O most chaste spouse of the Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who implored your help and sought your intercession were left unassisted. Full of confidence in your power I fly unto you and beg your protection. Despise not O Guardian of the Redeemer my humble supplication, but in your bounty, hear and answer me.

Amen.

Read more: ewtn.com/devotionals/prayers/Memorare_Joseph.htm#ixzz1ib4vbiJi

peace

Go to confession! Force yourself to go. It will get rid of a lot of demons that are following you and are going to make it harder and harder for you to go back. It’s easier to turn back then. The more sin you do, the more demons will try to follow you. They will take advantage of you for your doubts and because you are still dealing with mourning.

Pray this daily:
Prayer before a crucifix:
Behold, O kind and most sweet Jesus, I cast myself upon my knees in Your sight, and with the most fervent desire of my soul I pray and beseech You that You would impress upon my heart lively sentiments of Faith, Hope and Charity, true repentance for my sins and a firm purpose of amendment, while with deep affection and grief of soul I ponder within myself and mentally contemplate Your five most precious wounds, having before my eyes that which David spoke in prophecy of You, O good Jesus: they have pierced my hands and feet, they have numbered all my bones.

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle, be our safeguard against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, oh prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, thrust into hell satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.

Praying for ya

Also if you can, try praying the rosary, it really helps out :slight_smile:

Lord, please help Paul theApostle to pray and to get to confession and Mass. Help him to say No! to temptation and to hate sin. May he keep away from all occassions of sin and place all of his trust in You to help him. May he love You with all his heart, mind, soul and strength, and love his neighbor as himself. Please help him to have a devotion to Your Mother, the Bleessed Virgin Mary. May he pray to her for purity, and pray the Rosary daily. Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer.

thank you ,i just feel really weak but thank God you are all suggesting the rosary,i managed to pray a decade the other day and i feel now would be a good time to turn to Our Lady and pray to her,so il try to pray more of the rosary

il try to go see my priest soon

i feel so weak

Lord give me strength

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

I often post this site. If you love the rosary and appreciate the support, why not pray with the world? comepraytherosary.org/

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Paul dont quit… I’m in the same boat as you. Sometimes I feel like I give up so much for so little… Yesterday I was actually just contemplating leaving everything behind and going back to my past ways… my masturbation habits, my habits of impurity, my winner-take-all thinking… What if this was all BS (excuse the language, I want to express myself), What if there was no divine plan and YOLO (you only live once)… Why do godless people thrive while here I am, sacrificing my life and living a life full of restrictions only to get very little immediate gains back… In addition to this, I feel no divine assistance in my life.

I recommend reading this, its really helped me out alot.
christianity.about.com/od/singlesresources/a/disappointment.htm

Read John 6:60… Are you going to be like those fake Christians that will walk out on Jesus when things get hard, because they dont want to give up on their earthly desires and because the faith asks for too much?? Or will you be like a true apostle, like your name says, (authentic disciples) who reminded Jesus that they have left everything to follow him but instead of walking out and giving up they said “Where else do we go Lord?”

Youve come this far… and judging by the amount of posts your profile says, youve invested alot of time and effort in walking this path… persevere. Dont waste all that time and effort for nothing. I know this sounds cliche and overused… but keep fighting and trust him man.

God Bless and Love you Paul. I will keep you in my intentions as I say my rosary tonight.

Hi,

It sounds like you might be suffering from an adjustment disoder from you father’s death, Major Depression or bearevment. In any case, you need to talk to someone about this to help you through it. If you don’t feel comfortable talking to a priest (who would have the benefit of helping you with your spiritual crisis), you should at least talk to a psychologist or psychiatrist so that you behavior doesn’t become anymore self destructive than it already is.

I will also offer up a rosary of Holy Wounds for you, my brother in Christ. (btw when you say you smoke alot, are you reffering to weed?)

The problem is you are thinking that you are of this World. You are not.

and bro… its first Friday tomorrow, why not start the First 9 Friday devotion?

continuing in prayer. please keep praying for Paul

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

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