I decided yesterday that its time to go talk to someone about my problems & I made an appointment for Thurs evening.
I would say that I am mildly depressed. Ive been dealing with it in different degrees since I can remember. It comes & go’s regularly. This more recent episode was probably the most eye opening. I talked to my husband & he shared with me his feelings about my sadness. It was very enlighting to see his point of view - a light bulb went off.
Ive been running from it. Not seeing it for what it is. Ive tried to cover it up. Ive tried to put the focus on other areas (I thought if I only went back to college, If we lived somewhere else, If I made X amount of dollars, etc…) I would be happy. I realized that nothing outside of myself is going to bring me happiness (well maybe temporarily)
I might be a difficult patient because I dont want antidepressant medication. I havent shared this with my therapist yet, but I hope she can help me without prescribing meds.
I would love to hear from others who were helped by therapy…Thank you!