On your post, you put 2 adjectives, that, to me, seem to conflict. You put “agnostic” first, and then “Catholic” second. To me, you are either agnostic or Catholic. You can’t be both.
If you are agnostic, you are maybe unsure of the existence of God. If you are Catholic, you know he exists, and there is a set of beliefs which accompany that.
Now, with pretty much anyone who would post on the forum and says he was in a state of mortal sin, my normal policy is to at least try to persuade him to stop for his own good. I am Catholic, completely. I believe the whole set of beliefs, the Bible, Catechism, saints, popes, the Blessed Virgin Mary, everything! I honestly believe, with all my heart and soul, in heaven, purgatory, and hell.
Descriptions of hell are VERY bad. I don’t know if you have read any of them. The saints have relayed a few of them to us. St. Padre Pio said that the fires of even purgatory are MUCH worse than any earthly fires. He said to compare the fires of earth to those of purgatory would be like comparing regular water to boiling water.
St. Faustina, likewise, said that the majority of people there didn’t believe in it (until they were there). St. Padre Pio also said one would believe in hell, once there.
St. Faustina lists 7 torments of hell.
She said the first torment was the loss of God. The second was perpetual remorse. The third was knowing this condition would never change. This fire will penetrate your soul, without destroying it and be lit by God’s anger. Anyone in hell is in Satan’s constant company. For the rest, go to:
In your post, you said you had traded mass (God) for a boyfriend, and I think that’d be an accurate assessment of the situation. However, one thing you need to realize is that if you continue to deliberately go against the Church, and God, neither will be there later when you would like to seek comfort, protection and salvation.
It seems you have been given a choice, God or a boyfriend.
I believe with all my being that God is real, hard as it would be for some others to accept. I would hope, if it came to it, I’d rather lay down my life than deliberately break God’s commandments or displease him.
The Bible says how he created us, male and female. You already know the rest.
I would like you to know that you have a choice, that there have been others, even on the forum who have experienced same-sex attraction and managed to lead good, Catholic lives, but not much is normally heard of them. People seem to like to cover these cases up.
I’m going to end by giving you just one website of such folks:
and hope you would reconsider your position since everything, absolutely everything, is riding on your next decision.
May God guide your steps and bless you.
I’ll close with a prayer:
Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blest is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. :gopray: