I'm a married man, 15 years father of 3. My wife and I have had faith challenges throughout our lives but recently are looking to come back to the Church. Even in my absence I have continued to pray and speak to god daily/nightly. That being said I have come to a crossroads. I enjoy playing poker, I consider it a game of skill and not gambling. Most professional poker players call it a skill game as well. You play the players, not the cards. I understand that gambling is a sin, but I've prayed on it. I play poker semi-professionally because it provides me a way to feed my family. I don't consider myself a greedy person. I don't play for fame and riches, I do it as a job. I play within my means, it doesn't compromise my priorities. I've prayed several times and I feel in my heart it's the right thing to do. I've told God if by some miracle I were to win a lot of money that I would feel obligated to share it and be as charitable as possible.
My question is, am I doomed? If I feel deeply in my heart that I'm doing the right thing, and I have honest intentions and I do what I do because I feel it's what god has planned for me am I wrong? When does it become an issue of sin, vs an issue of faith and believing that I'm doing what God wants of me? I understand that God is against the get rich quick approach, but if that's not my intention, and those aren't my goals am I justified? I want to be right with God, I feel that I am being truthful as I've prayed and asked for signs and asked for something to tell me to my core that what I'm doing is wrong but I don't feel it, I feel the opposite. I truly feel to my core that I'm doing what I was meant to do when it comes to work in my life. Please help me understand whether what I'm feeling is wrong :(