i am so very confused right now.
but i trust that even as i crawl through this darkness calling out the precious name of Jesus, God will rescue me and draw me close to Himself in Love.
i won’t pretend that i didn’t think that Catholicism was beautiful and absolute Truth. but after visiting a nondenominational forum and reading their logical arguments against Catholicism, i can’t help but be drawn to nondenominational evangelical Christianity once more. i have been desperately crying out to God to lead me to the Truth, for i’ve been doubting the Catholic faith for a while now, and i feel convicted deep in my spirit whenever i read their arguments against Catholicism. it makes too much sense to me, and i feel drawn much too strongly away from Catholicism and into a relationship with Jesus alone, one not based on the sacraments.
i’m so sorry to anyone who will be upset by this … i honestly do not believe that any of you who sincerely pursue God and love Him and do His Will will perish. there are some who say that all Catholics will go to Hell. i don’t believe that - i’m not like that. i believe that God is too merciful to allow someone to perish who has loved Him and followed Him throughout their entire life. right now, i’m not fully convinced that nondenominational Christianity is the absolute truth, but i’m getting there. i have to admit that what i’ve read about Catholicism has terrified me, and convicted me deep within my spirit. the Holy Spirit seems to be leading me, and He’s not leading me towards Catholicism, but away from it.
i have had an incredible experience on here - met so many incredible people - grown in my experience of God and my relationship with Him. i’m not going to come back and start preaching about what i now believe - i’m not like that. i will come back and visit all of you and see how you are doing, and i will continue to message and contact my friends on here. i will also be keeping all of you in my constant thoughts and prayers. i just have to do this, because i don’t feel comfortable in Catholicism anymore - i feel too convicted, even though this will raise many problems in my life.
it would be easier to remain Catholic, i’m not going to lie. i would stay on here with the friends i’ve made. i would go to a beautiful Catholic college. now that i no longer consider myself Catholic, my parents i will disagree again. college is a blur all over again. i do have a question - if i don’t consider myself Catholic, would it be a sin to partake of the Eucharist? i don’t want to sin against God or offend anyone, that’s certainly not my intention in posting my thread. i want to be open and honest with all of you, and let you know why i’m leaving this website. my parents will still force me to go to Mass until i leave for college, so what should i do? i’ll have to tell them eventually that i’ve left the Catholic faith again, and it will be extremely hard. but i do feel that it’s God’s will, and i don’t think that i’m being deceived.
i love all of you so much, and will continue to visit you and pray for you. you are all beautiful, loving, amazing servants of God, and i’m sure we will meet again in Heaven very soon. * i don’t believe that Catholics are going to Hell - instead, i believe that sincere, loving Catholics who do the will of God will go to Heaven just like everyone who does the will of God and loves Jesus.
if any of you would like to talk further about what brought me to this decision, feel free to message me. i will come on here every day to check my messages, so it’s not like i’m leaving and never appearing on here again.
i love you all. stay strong, stay safe and take care of yourselves. God bless you.