Last time I went to confession, it was early morning and I hadn’t slept much, but I knew I had to do it because, as a priest told me, after committing a mortal sin one should go as soon as possible. Although it was a Sunday, I didn’t have time later that day, so I woke up early and went to the morning Mass. I hadn’t really prepared for the confession, but I knew exactly what I had done wrong and that I want to have my sins forgiven. So after confessing my sins and about to receive absolution from the priest, I realized I hadn’t achieved perfect contrition before the confession. Still half asleep, I panicked and tried to… achieve it, but I wasn’t really sure if I did. After the confession, I decided I probably was alright and calmly went to receive the Eucharist.
However, after that I still had some doubt that I had had perfect contrition. So I searched on the internet for more information about contrition (in my teenage years, I don’t really know much about Catholic theology, so I’m trying to find out how everything works) and realized my confession hadn’t been valid if I had only imperfect contrition.
The problem is, after the confession I could hardly remember what I was thinking and how I felt about it, and now, after several days of thinking about it, I’m really unsure if I had the perfect contrition or not. As I hadn’t had enough sleep, I didn’t have any feelings like sorrow, fear or anything, but I’m also not sure I was motivated only by love of God. It felt like I just had to go and get my soul clean. (Usually I feel more sorrow, probably because I simply have better physical conscience by having enough sleep.) I also was aware of temporal punishment and knew that confession and consequent indulgence would remove it and clear my life from all stain of previous sin. I’m just not sure that it happened this time (I fear I might have not had perfect contrition, not that God didn’t forgive me if I did).
My question is: Although I wasn’t sure about the contrition, are my sins forgiven? Since I am not sure if I had perfect contrition, I can’t be sure I received absolution (if that is not right, I’m sorry, please correct me), so what should I do to ensure my mortal sins are forgiven? Should I retell them at my next confession? Or should I think everything is alright and name last Sunday as my previous good confession?
Thanks in advance.