My husband is a field agent for the Knights of Columbus. He does a great job at it. He had left the corporate financial industry to do this, and for the first time in his life he is actually happy in his career. This makes me very proud and very happy, too. I am so pleased for him!
The only drawback is he is not home anymore. He leaves at about 8:15 in the morning and gets back after 11. I understand it. I am not asking anybody to change it, but I am looking for some words of encouragement or advice. Without him around, I run the whole show while I am still working full-time. This is challenging! I love my daughter, and I am finding that she works very well with me when it is just the two of us. She is my helper. She helps set the table, she helps clear the table, she plays well…she’s great. So it isn’t that I am tired of my daughter, but I don’t know. I think maybe I am just lonely even though I have an amazing little family.
Then I feel a range of emotions. Guilt for feeling lonely or under appreciated. Joy for my husband. Nerves for the upcoming new baby. Remorse that I have to go to work every day. Excitement that I likely will be able to stay home after this second baby is born. …Fear that I am going to stay home after this second baby is born. I’m a whole bundle of stuff. I know that this is exacerbated by pregnancy.
So with all of this rambling, I am basically asking this. I know I am not the only mother to have done it on her own! What kinds of things did you do to help get you through this funk? I don’t have many friends in the area to call on for support, and my family is not in the same state. I really do feel like I’m on my own. I am hopeful that this will be different (not likely easier, just different) when I am able to stay home. There will be more open time to meet other mothers at community events and bonding classes with the kids…that is my hope at least. But for now, I’m limited to a small, crazy busy window of time every evening to get everything done. …woops, I rambled again. Anyway, any advice?