Well, this morning I was received into the Church. It was amazing. I took the confirmation name Therese (for St. Therese the Little Flower) and received First Communion and it was wonderful…I cried like a baby!
However, I have a long way to go, and besides struggling to overcome numerous venial sins, I often feel an INTENSE fear of God/Hell/Purgatory (and consequently, I deal with scrupulosity too) which I know impedes my ability to love Him like I should. I took St. Therese as my confirmation patroness for many reasons, but the main one is that she teaches that as long as we are striving to submit ourselves to His will (through the Church) and to learn to love Him and others as we should, we shouldn’t live in fear of God.
I would appreciate any prayers anyone would be willing to offer for the intention of helping me deepen my love for the Lord as I embark on my journey as an official Catholic. God bless you all.