I am only a chronic habitual sinner who always commit sins against purity. How can I become a seminarian and a future priest?
I am indeed worried about becoming a bad priest. As we all know, Cardinal McCarrick’s alleged sexual abuse scandal had rocked the whole Church, in particular the American Catholic Church, and I am afraid of bringing disgrace to the Church. Somehow it seems clerics are more prone to commit sexual abuse, probably because of the fact that there are many eyes keeping an eye on one another in ordinary workplace and the lay society, whereas in parishes, seminaries and religious houses, obedience to superiors gives covering up of scandals more crevices to encroach upon. Also, as clerics are not as vulnerable to the temptation of money as laymen, perhaps the Devil loves to attack priests and friars with sexual wrongdoings or power struggle more than any other sins.
I am afraid of disappointing the Church and conclude my life with a miserable ending in the jail. How can one who is ‘rotten’ from its root become a priest?