I don’t even know what to think about this.
I just went to confession. I wanted to confess something that I only recently remembered and decided was a sin. It’s something from long ago. After I said it, the priest asked me if the sin was just a thought, or if I acted on it. I said it was a thought, but I don’t know why I said this cause that’s not true, it actually did involve actions!! I just felt so ashamed of it, I didn’t want to say. Then, the priest went on to talk about the topic in general…and I realized that I wasn’t entirely honest with him. So after he gave me some advice, I said that the area I had struggled in, involved sins that were both thoughts and actions. But here’s the thing - even though I said this, I don’t think I was clear enough, and I think the priest still got the impression that the particular instance I confessed in the beginning involved thoughts only. Also, I feel like I explained it all so badly that the priest didn’t get a clear enough understanding of what I had actually done. (I was very nervous)
(sorry for this overly complex explanation…)
Afterwards, as I was praying before the Tabernacle, I felt like God had forgiven me… but I know feelings aren’t trustworthy… so now, I can’t decide, - do I have to go back to confession now for this? If I have to, I will, but confessing this sin caused me so much anxiety I don’t know how I’d do it a second time. I’m so mad at myself!!! why didn’t I just say the truth the first time around!
Also, when I was confessing another thing, I forgot to tell the priest that I didn’t confess it last Saturday though i should have… BUT, it turns out it wasn’t a sin in the first place! So does it matter?
if you have a moment, please say a prayer for me…I keep on getting confused. I wish that for once, I’d just make a good Confession. Do you think God still forgave me? should I go again?