I don't want to write an autobiography here or anything, but for most of my life I've always wanted to become a scientist. I generally believed that to work in the science industry would be my fate.
Then when I was about 15 or so, and at school we had to pick our "optional" subjects, I was very close to picking Physics/Biology and some other subject. But I saw the word "economics" for the first time in my entire life and instantly this huge ''urge'' came over me to pick the subject. I then read further down that those who graduated with an economics degree generally end up with the highest salaries. However, it's important to note that it is NOT because of monetary reasons that I like economics, as I read this fact after the urge came over me to do it. As a matter of fact, I was very close to dropping the subject again when we had to pick our subjects for a qualification that comes later here, when I was about 17. Again, I just felt this slight nudge for me to pick Economics.
Many have said that I am extremely good at economics. My economics teacher described in my report that I was a "promising economist". I also had a counterpart who said I had proved myself to be a top economist and that I deserved to study the subject at a leading university.
I know my non-religious vocation isn't as spectacular as some others here who may have experienced visions, dreams, locutions and whatnot. But nonetheless, I still feel this is important for me.
I am starting a novena to St. Therese for her to send me a rose of some sort if being an economist - particularly academic economist - is indeed my vocation. Is this acceptable? How should I interpret it if I receive no rose within the time period of making the novena?
I'm very worried because all of sudden here, economics has become a popular subject at university, now rivalling Medicine and Law. I am quite convinced that God has called me to this, but I am highly fearful of whether God will lead me through this intense competition (I don't go to a private school), and first and foremost, whether I can have a peace of mind concerning this.
*Eugen von Böhm-Bawerk *