Hello anyone who reads this, my first post on these forums. I’ve been lurking for a long time, and mostly looking at the succession of ‘is this a mortal sin’ discussions. You may be sorry to hear that this is one of those, after a fashion.
I have managed to become very scrupulous over the last year or so, and have recently reached such a crisis point that I am doing something about it. In many ways, this crisis has been provoked by learning the distinction between mortal and venial sin; I understand that this can often help with scrupulosity, but in my case it has made my pre-occupation with my own sins more urgent.
I have two problems troubling me at the moment, and I would love to hear your opinions, just to set things in perspective - mostly as to the gravity of these matters.
Firstly, I was in the car with my mum this evening, and spoke of my sorrow at hearing that a homeless man I know was back on the streets. I provided quite thorough details and, whilst in two minds about it, I admitted that he had a certain destructive habit. Could this be a mortal sin, spreading fairly defamatory information? She doesn’t know him and is unlikely to meet him.
Secondly, and more acutely, I ate quite little today, mostly in penance, but had resolved to do so until supper. I had a normal supper, and followed it with a few squares of chocolate and a jelly baby. I didn’t hold this to constitute gluttony, but then went for a second sweet even though I did not feel hungry. At the last minute, I thought it would be less gluttonous to eat something wholesome, so I went from some pesto bread my sister had made. I then thought I would remind myself of what really constituted gluttony, and when it became sinful. Whilst doing this, I happily and freely ate the pesto bread, just as I tried to find out if eating for pleasure could be sinful.
The general consensus seems to be that eating in this circumstance is probably not sinful - correct me if I err here. What I worry about is my apparent lack of conviction in forming my conscience, and lack of concern about sin in this action. I should have sorted out my thoughts about gluttony and mortal sin before eating the extra bread, and even thought this as I did it. I knew that this was sinful, and I consented to eating; is failure to inform one’s conscience always a grave matter?
Thank you for your attention.