For some time now, I've been fighting the call to the Catholic church and it has become quite tiresome; I am ready to throw in the towel against God. But I am filled with fear. I am called to Youth Ministry and would pursue this ministry even in the Catholic church (students and young adults are my passion). However, I'm married with kids and am apprehensive to even begin the process of becoming Catholic. Would I have to leave my ministerial position (and also the only income supporting my wife and two kids) before starting the process or can it be done while I still hold my post at the church to ensure security for my family? There are many questions and fears that are stirring up inside of me, and I know this is where I should be going, but I am flooded by the fears of future job security as a married man called to ministry with two kids to support.
Any and all advice is welcome and appreciated.