Please pray for me in a most distressing and most private and personal illness that has caused me to be non-functional for much of 10 years, involving sleep and GI. I have found little medical help with this problem for reasons I don’t understand. Maybe I’m just too polite. Also my psych issues are assumed to predominate, meanwhile I have been suffering in the most unholy way, day be day, month by month, et cetera through this physical distress, while continuing to be presumed to be attending to my duties, my son, my (ex) husband, et cetera, and continuing in the most unbelievable ways to try to do so, feeling at times like I was just pretending.
I have new hope that this condition may be remitting. So much is lost. I pray also for my ex-husband’s health and to better understand the Lord’s will about our marriage and my/his/our future.
I’m supposed to go to RCIA, believe I have baptism of desire but have been told I have to go through the steps as soon as possible, but with this illness I have fallen into such lassitude and malaise it is difficult to be around people, and difficult for anyone to start something new at my age and with all these circumstances, and in a new area too, post-divorce, where the people feel so unfamiliar.