I’ve been experiencing these issues while I sleep since I was 13 and honestly I don’t know what to do and I am asking for help from the perspective of our Catholic church.
Almost every single night, I would experience the feeling of being conscious while sleeping and I could see my surroundings but the thing is - I cannot move my physical body at all. It’s very scary because I can’t move a single muscle, and I could see my bedroom but I don’t know whether I am sleeping/awake ? It scares me all the time because I would often hear voices and hear whispers and I would always feel like there’s someone in the room with me. I’ve been keeping it to myself for so long and I really don’t know where to look for answers.
An episode would last for about more than ten minutes and I would get about 5-8 episodes per night continuously. As soon as I finished one episode, I would wake up but to be dragged again by this very “tiring and uncontrolled force” that puts me back to sleep and then everything starts all over again. I would try to wiggle myself out of it but it’s very hard, and I only manage to wake myself up after more than 10 minutes of trying ( I guess it’s that long because I really didn’t took much track of time, but it felt very long )
Please, help me. I really don’t know where to seek the right answers except here. Everything happens by itself and I really can’t put an end to it. It sucks away my energy every time it happens. It stopped when I was 14 and 15 but it started all over again when I was 16 ( last year ) until now and it’s so frequent nowadays - almost every night for the past six months and often more than once per night.
I really need help. Everyone I’ve been to thought I was stupid and I made all these stories up but I hope you guys here would at least give me some answers. And don’t think that I am stupid please, I received that too much already from those I am trying to get help.
P.S My mom, grandma and eldest sister experience this too but not as often as I do.