I think I have a vocation but not in the sense of priesthood or as a missionary. I apologize if this thread is in the wrong place... I didn't know where else to write it.
In the last two years I have been taking inventory of my worth and worth to my family and as a follower. I can say I believe I'm doing an ok job as a father and a husband. These are my vocations as a person. As far as the community or church goes, it's an area where I've been feeling a little lacking in effort. Every morning begins with me driving to work in my own silence realizing how routine my life has become. Questions like "Is there more purpose to my life beyond helping to lead my family?" Don't get me wrong, this is where I belong... I enjoy my kids and love my wife. There was this inescapable feeling like someone else is trying to get out. I wanted to do more as a Catholic – I wanted to show more to God.
Well back to this vocation I mentioned above. I'm an art director for an advertising company and also a fine artist - on the side. Two years ago I did a series of small murals for my parish that adorn it's entrance into the church. I feel this was the turning point in my life. I truly felt I was painting for the Lord – the most satisfying feeling I have ever felt. I was sharing the gift that was given to me through God... I believe I found this gift and held on to it and I've done some great things with it but I've always wanted to do something great that I could feel like I've truly rejoiced through my gift to God. Kind of like a thank you. Painting those murals was the beginning.
Two years later I am now painting a 60 x 25 foot mural to tower the alter of my church. I would have never imagined doing this - ever. I truly believe this is my vocation to a service (and thanks) to my faith and to God. Is there such a thing as a Painter of God? With all my heart I have accepted to do this regardless of the compensation or the time away from my family to paint my heart out like there will never be an opportunity like this one again in my life.
I pray that God helps me find the strength to do my best in this endeavor.
I invite everyone to take a peak at my progress posted to my blog...