…for the first steps of a reconciliation between myself and a friend / former gf (known her for 6 years) who I’ve not talked to for about a year. When we broke up, she hurt me pretty badly, and for a while, it was good to be away. But, after a time, I was unable to let go of that anger and pain…for two years in total, I’ve carried it around, feeling worse and worse, sometimes to the point of despair.
Tonight, by God’s grace, I got to talk with her a bit, as well as her husband.
She hugged me, and smiled at me, and I told her I missed her, and I think she said the same. Her husband was the nicest guy, too.
I feel…weak, and drained. I have wanted to be able to let go of this anger and hurt for a long, long time…I think I can, now. I’m not exactly sure how I feel…empty, almost. But it’s a good feeling…not weighed down by the specter of something that’s been eating away at me for two years. I didn’t know how badly I’d been feeling, not really, until I came home tonight and cried like a baby.
I give thanks to God for his great mercy on me, opening the path to peace, reconciliation, and a new start, especially in being able to love myself. Thank you, Jesus. It is more than I will ever deserve.