Basically my life is in a state of great despair and depression.
For one, I've been going through a period of intense loneliness to the point that I'm questioning if my friends even know I still exist (or if they even care)...this includes both my religious and secular friends.
On top of this literally almost everyone I know my age is dating or getting engaged (including a girl I was deeply attracted to for a long time but who didn't return the sentiment...although we're still friends). Me being single and having the worst track record with women leaves me feeling utterly hopeless and depressed. I struggle to be happy for my female friend considering we didn't "work out" and I have to witness it on a regular basis since we attend the same parish and school.
On top of that I don't (and never have) fully related with either of my two groups of friends either because they don't share my faith or don't share what's important to me in addition to my faith. I've always felt like an outcast in both groups. I sometimes don't even feel welcome.
At times like this I wish I had someone special to talk to, but there isn't anyone. It's like I don't even exist anymore to anyone. I mean people obviously care about me, but I dont feel it. My life basically feels like it's on hold.