I have a question.
I had a dream last night in which, in order to escape an uncomfortable situation, I considered doing something that would be a mortal sin. I wasn’t in the beginning aware that it would be a mortal sin, but then the awareness came to me, and I realized I wasn’t allowed to do that.
a) I think if something happens in a dream, it is not a sin, right? BUT I realized, upon waking up, that this could have well happened this way had I been awake. This same thought would have come to me.
So, the mere POTENTIAL inside of me, realizing that I could have had that thought, that INTENTION also in real life - should I take that to confession?
b) If this had happened in real life: Would the fact that I would stop the intention once I was aware it would be a mortal sin mean that I had NOT committed a mortal sin with that thought? Does “full awareness” mean that i must be fully aware that it is a MORTAL SIN, or just that I must be fully aware of what I am thinking?
So really, I would only commit mortal sin if, after realizing it would be a mortal sin, I still kept planning to carry out that intention (or even carry it out, fully)?
In general, am I in mortal sin for having had that thought/intention and realized that I could have had it also in real life?
p.s. talking about really serious sin here. One that would boil down to murder, if one was really aware what one was doing.