Ok, so this may seem like a lame question, but I have seen some wonderful advice come through these forumns, so I hope you can help me out.
Since I was very young I have thought about the possability of religious life, and often have felt drawn to it. At the end of my college years I got a spiritual director who was very encouraging of my entering a specific community. I went on a week long retreat with the community and really clicked quite well with the sisters, however at the time I decided not to put papers in. In part due to family preasure, and also in part to my own insecurities abuot entering.
In the last year, I planned to visit other communities, but money and time never seemed to be available, and I was only able to visit one other, which I didn't particularly feel drawn to.
At this point, I feel as though I am never really never going to be able to "get over" the idea of religous life unless I enter and explore the Lord's will further. Because the community I entered is the only community where I felt like I "fit in" with, it seems to be the most logical community to apply to. This being said... I am absolutely TERRIFIED of making the commitment to actually put papers in. Is this a bad sign? Should I explore more communities and be 100% sure of a particular community before putting papers in? Or have others experienced sheer terror at the idea of commiting to a particular community?
Thanks so much!