I’ve been really praying that God would take my life. Every time I go to confession my hope and prayer is that I’ll die so that I can die in a state of grace and avoid an eternity of wailing and gnashing teeth in Hell.
Im always falling into sin and my mind is so disturbed the probability of me losing my soul is highly likely.
I understand that im not a robot and there is choice involved but I cant count on myself to make good decisions.
My hope is also that God will take me because I think about suicide often and I’d rather he took me than to take it into my own hands.