So this post comes with a prayer request, just for God’s will in my life and for me to trust the Holy Spirit and actually act when I need to.
I’ve been thinking about patience and its proper end/the proper exercising of patience. I’m very impatient, not in little ways (like I don’t get annoyed easily and I don’t hate waiting in lines or anything), but in more significant ways, usually pertaining to always wanting to know the future, always wanting “clarity,” etc. This is partially because of my clinical anxiety (one day I’ll be grateful for this cross) and partially perhaps because of my own habits.
I was going to explain my entire predicament in detail but I know that it is unwise to solicit too much advice, so instead I am going to give you a vague idea. I’ve been really trying to exercise patience in a dating situation (with someone who is not ready for a relationship but still wants to see if there’s something there), but it’s come to a point when I don’t know if I’m being impatient - or if this “impatience” is a righteous response to the situation not moving in any direction when I’m really developing feelings, and the other person doesn’t necessarily seem to be on the same page. We are called to trust God and also I would assume to trust others, but *** when does “patience” toward someone else become more of an enabling force? When do we just have to either cut it off or call that person out in a loving way?* ** Being a person who likes control and knowing where things are headed (I know those are bad things haha), it’s very hard for me to be involved in something that is quite grey since I am emotionally attached. Not to mention I had thought that I was going to grow in the virtue of patience in this scenario, and I’m not sure if that’s happening. It’s been months and he just says he likes spending time with me, but he’s not consistent, and I don’t know if I’m expecting too much and misunderstand what patience is or what.
If you could say a little prayer before responding, I’d greatly appreciate it!