I’ve been involved with a political party for over a year now and I think it’s time that I start attending some of the state functions and get to know people, especially since most the conservatives and pro-lifers are from other faraway parts of the state. There’s a chance I can hitch a ride with some local party members, but will drive alone if I must.
But I’m feeling guilty because I want to tell my husband that I want to go by myself when we had originally talked about going together. He used to be in the other party but is no longer active, and was going to just hack around town while I was in the various sessions. But really, I should be spending lunches and dinners and open-bars with these people. My husband is a bit of a chatterbox when he’s nervous and what usually happens is I end up standing around while he talks about things I’ve heard before and my mind just goes blank, especially if I’m tired. I’ve been around people like him all my life, to where I practically forgot how to speak, and I really need to stand on my own.
There is absolutely no flirting or philandering here… plus I adore politics, where he is no longer really interested. Am I wrong & selfish to want to go it alone?