I’m probably the last person to be posting something like this.
The problem I have with prayer is falling in and out of it. It’s become almost like dieting. I spent long hours, years at a time, really, seeking to make prayer a regimen, a habit, I would not break, but it wasn’t like that in the end.
I enjoy doing it when I do it, yet too often find days, weeks, months going by when all I can do when coming back home is having my head hit the pillow.
It is certainly not what prayer should be – so I seem to do it now when I feel moved to. Exercise and diet are regimens; prayer should be different – it should come from a loving relationship with God – and I surprise myself when I realize I don’t have that. I had it before, why not now? Is a lack of a prayer life proof you don’t have a loving relationship with God?
So I found myself going through these reading selections. They’re very good but seem to lead to the belief that prayer is a regimen like diet or exercise.
Any advice to add to Fr. Gallagher’s?