Paul, the question you need to ask yourself is: “Do I WANT to believe - and put into practice - all that the Catholic Church teaches?” If your heart is seeking to justify your points of unbelief rather than seeking to understand and to assent to the Church’s teaching, you will inevitably stay at on the fringe, so to speak.
We believe there is objective Truth to be known and embraced re Faith and Morals because Christ has come from the Father to reveal Himself and how we should live in Him in this life and the next, and that Christ has given the authority to His Church to preserve and teach these truths for our salvation. So those who do embrace Christ in and through His Church DO have a deeper spiritual insight and anointing than those who prefer the a la carte approach to religious belief and practice.
If one denies the authority of the Church to teach, or proposes that a particular teaching on either faith and/or morals is in error, then one must explain why his insight is greater than those who are faithful, e.g., Pope Benedict, Fr. Benedict Groeschel, Fr. John Corapi, Scott and Kimberly Hahn, Mother Angelica, to name but a few who come to mind. One doesn’t look to the dissenters for examples of how to believe and live, but to those live and have lived the Faith to the full.
Keep in mind that we don’t “get” ourselves to believe. We prepare ourselves to believe through simply saying, “I believe, Lord, help Thou my unbelief.” One wanting to believe through one’s own sorting through all the arguments that can be arrayed pro and con will not come to the fullness of the faith; but rather wanting to believe as the Lord would have one with and through His Church is what is efficacious to belief. The Lord did not create us to live in unsurety, but to be assured of the truth of His teaching through His Church to which He has entrusted all that He would have us believe and how He would have us live in concert with what we believe.
We found a Priest who doesn’t mind about contraception (he disagrees with the “official” stance on contraception at the time), and he’s willing to bring us into the Catholic Church, and to give us communion once we become Catholic (or confess sins, in my case).
Why would you want to enter into union with Christ’s Church through such an unfaithful priest?! Far better to find one who will challenge you to believe - one doesn’t follow after Judas, but Peter.