Ok, many of you are familiar with my “Case”…(If you aren’t, it takes to long to write…Look here and here
I’d like to add another tier to it. LOL, but let’s not get all bent out of shape on THIS thread…LOL
Anyways, Its been two years now. Cool.
And lately, the wall has been pushing back, actually. Instead of no progress, I’m back-pedaling.
You see, I talked to her dad a while back (The second time) and this may or may not have been mentioned before, but I stopped talking to the young woman for a few weeks. Her dad had given me permission to go over to their house more often, and do things like watch movies with them, but a week or so later, he takes it back. Because “She” felt that “she” wasn’t ready. Blah blah.
And so I just stopped talking to her. AKA, gave her the silent treatment. she either DOESN’T or is not ALLOWED to just find me and talk to me. So the silent treatment was as easy as not sitting down to talk to her. I continued ntil I couldn’t bear to see her miserable as she was. (She was indeed) and I started talking to her again.
Immediately afterwards, she seemed to talk to me more, and was a little more open with me (not about her feelings, but about other stuff) SHE even hugged ME once!! Everything was great!..for a while…
You see, recently, she went to Los Angeles on for a conference. When she came back, I was so happy to see her, I just surprised her with a hug and said “I missed you”. A friend of mine said she just “Lit up immediately” she was so happy. (Remember that fact)
Well, ever since then…I have’t hugged her. Its like she LITERALLY avoids it. once she even hid behind her sister! Another time, I said “Ok! Get up! Birthday hug!” and she “politely” declined.
I’m horrible at reading into things. And by horrible, I mean I do it a lot, and it depresses me. But the reason why it depresses me is that I’m usually right.
And so the gears in my head began to turn. And I realized that her father must have told her “no more hugs” likely because of that one hug when she came back from L.A.
I felt hurt, again. And I feel like I will never be as important to her as she is to me.
I mean SERIOUSLY!! A hug!?!?
And she’s going along with it.
There’s no finding time to talk alone about it quickly. No "Hey Ryan, I know my dad is doing this…but don’t worry."
And this girl really is amazing and if it weren’t for this, I’d say that I’m totally and completely head-over-heels in love with her.
So after feeling like I was DEFINITELY going to give up, I slept on it and decided to send another message lke the last time.
I stopped talking to her.
I went to choir practice and didn’t even look at her.
I went to Mass today and immediately went to sit with my family, and did not speak a word to her, or her sisters.
they are obviously getting the idea, and i really want that…but I don’t know what to do from here. Is what I am doing OK? Am I doing it right, or wrong? Or whatever? LOL
I mean…I could do plenty…but many problems come to mind…
I’ve lost so much sleep these past years and I just want to find out a way to fix this NOW.
I feel like even if I got her on my side, what could I do? I don’t have a good enough job to support a family, and I feel totally helpless.
One word to describe how I feel nearly every day: Depressed