I seemed to have developed a new fear and its kind of bothering me. I haven’t gone into full blown despair yet, but my scrupulous sense is definitely tingling right now (at least, thats all I hope it is).
I’ve had this fear that in times of strong temptation, I am fulfilling the 3 requirements of mortal sin in a split second. I may be against it a few seconds later, but that split second might have doomed me.
I feel like maybe there was a small flash of time (possibly even a split second) where I had full consent, full knowledge, and grave matter during the temptation.
For example, lustful thoughts. Sometimes the temptations are so strong that it actually feels like I consented. Maybe in a split-second, I actually did consent!:eek: Thus I would question my state of grace every time I get tempted.
Is this completely off the mark of what mortal sin is? Is there a sufficient time frame to consider when one has full knowledge, deliberate consent, and grave matter?