[quote="TrueLight, post:1, topic:266499"]
A true dual spirituality where you take the spiritual graces that you get in mental prayer and share the Gospel with the world.
Forgive me if I am presuming, but it sounds to me like you are beginning to get the outlines of your own life in the spirit. Being contemplative (non-active now w/out an SD) but also someone with a specific wish to service in a specific way, I presume this is why I was sent to the SFO. It seems from what I am finding out, that the individual is very responsible for the shape their own life practice takes. I find, for myself, Francis the perfect model of the contemplative who acted from the graces of his prayer.
When St Anthony, the penultimate preacher, finally showed his talents and got out of the kitchen, when it was time for him to start teaching theology to the Friars, even though Francis was no longer in charge, he would not proceed without Francis' permission. Francis sent him this note:
To Friar Anthony, my bishop, Francis (wishes) salvation. • It pleases me that you read sacred theology to the friars, so long as in the study of this you do not extinguish the spirit of prayer and devotion, just as is contained in the Rule.
From all I have read, and this is about him not whatever might go on today in the SFO, Francis was about prayer and then work/service. Which included preaching by some. If his friars didn't read, he did not encourage them to learn, but gave them other prayers to say when those who could read prayed the Divine Office.
But what you will find around you when you search and speak and visit, I don't know. God will get you there, though, I'm sure of it.