I’m not a very disciplined person, when it is something I have to self-monitor.
For example, I have started many a diet in the past, and failed due to lack of discipline.
There are other areas that I fail with due to no one else in charge of me but me.
So when it comes to discipline matters of the Church, I have always had issues with keeping them, and thinking that they are right, such as contraception, masturbation, pre-marital sex, gluttony, drunkenness, lust, all the things that give us selfish pleasure.
I truly understand God’s rules and the Church’s rules. It is discipline I lack.
I sin, as we all do. But I pray too that His Holy Spirit will help me gain more self-discipline, and over the last 3 years it has started working.
I am now on a diet, and have lost 4.5kgs in 2 weeks (sorry I don’t know that in pounds for all my American mates) and I hardly ever get drunk now.
The sex is all gone, but that is easy as I am single, but the sin of lust still prevails, but I am getting better, and pray about it.
Other than that, I love my Church, its rituals, its incense, its prayers, its candles, its Holy Days, fasting through Lent, Advent, celibacy of priests, the papacy, its community spirit, its Truth.