Thank you all for your responses. I appreciated them so much. I will try to respond to each of your posts, it may take awhile though. (it is very hard to write posts with a needy baby beside me)
I will try to respond to a few reoccurring questions/comment first and then go from there.
First, let me say thanks for all the positive comments about my husband, RyanL. He truly is a wonderful and brilliant man. I couldn’t ask for a better husband. We are blessed.
A couple of you were concerned it was my family holding me back from converting. Let me assure you, this is not the case. No doubt, my mom will be hurt, and maybe a little worried, but this isn’t something that will come between us or cause me not to follow God’s plan for me. I mentioned my family because we are very close. I call my mom probably three times a week and we talk about everything. If something exciting happens, she is the first person I call. (assuming my husband already knows) My issue was, I couldn’t see my conformation being something so exciting that I would rush to call my mom. And I feel like it should be. If I can’t be excited about something, maybe I shouldn’t be doing it? That is why I started thinking I was considering converting for the wrong reason. I read all these posts about how excited everyone is, and I don’t think I would have that excitement…yet. But have no fear, my family is not what is holding me back.
Next, my problem with Confession is not what you would think. Many of you offered reasons and scriptures for confession and I appreciate that. However, I actually don’t have a problem with confessing to a priest (as an option). It makes sense. I have even thought about what I would say in my first confession. It isn’t something I fear as far as having to tell someone all my sins. There is, of course, a problem. I will try to explain. Baptists believe that sin separates you from God, so in order to regain that relationship, one confesses to God. I was taught, confess as soon as you realize the sin, so you can get right with God immediately. Here’s the problem, we believe that once you ask for forgiveness, God forgives you and that sin is gone. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
1 John 1:9. However, if we confess our sin and then hold onto that sin, (continuously feeling guilty about it and asking again and again for forgiveness) then we are calling God a liar by not believing he forgave us when we first asked. (Does this make sense?) So the problem is, if I confess to God as soon as I sin and then confess that same sin to a priest later, I would feel like I didn’t trust God enough to forgive me the first time. In essence, I would feel like I was sinning by re-confessing my sins. Or the other option would be to save everything up until I could go make a confession, but then I would be separated from God until I could get there and that doesn’t sound like a wise choice either. So that is my problem with confession. Not the typical problem most people have, but there it is. I would love to hear comments on this one. This is the one thing my loving husband has yet to find a solution for…( love ya hon!) He can usually shoot down any problem or question I might have about Catholic issues…but we haven’t quite worked this one out, so any insight would be appreciated.
Again thank you for all your posts, I hope this answered some of your questions.