I am feeling very discouraged about something and need some advice.
I have a good priest guiding me as a spiritual director. He has helped me a lot. Lately the devil has been tempting me with horrible thoughts against him. Either I’m tempted to doubt and disobedience and to reject everything the priest said, or to terrible (and really annoying) impure thoughts. In either case I lose sight of the reality which is God working through this priest; both temptations emphasize the human aspect. Sadly I fell into temptation one time and agreed to the thoughts, but then repented and now I don’t allow them at all, I just distract myself whenever I get tempted either way. Our Blessed Mother and St Philomena have also been protecting and helping me. But I am feeling so discouraged… I don’t know why the devil has been after me like this - and I have no doubt that it is him because I don’t actually view my spiritual director negatively at all - but is that a good sign or a bad sign? Does it mean that indeed God has been working through this and the enemy is angry? Or, does it mean the opposite? Should I let him know about any of this - in very general terms…or not? I’ll say it in confession but I have to go to another priest for confession now cause my SD is too far away. I am also very sorrowful over the fact that I’ve allowed these temptations, but thankfully later on God helped me see how bad they are and now I’m very careful with them.
Please offer me some advice… thank you. I know this probably sounds very silly and I understand the temptations are very ridiculous, I don’t even know where they came from, - but it felt like something from the enemy to distract me. Im so ashamed of this and I also think it’s all very ridiculous, like I said, but it’s also discouraging and I don’t know what to do now. Has anything similar ever happened in the lives of the Saints?