I need some guidance in a current situation, any comments would be much appreciated!
I have recently, quite by chance, found myself reading “Signs you are being called to vocation (priesthood brother etc)” on various catholic webpages etc
I don’t have a particular desire to be a priest but I find myself answering yes to most of the usual signs:
-Basic desire to radically give your life to God completely - Yes
-Inner desire to pray more- Yes
-Attraction to things associated with the priesthood (serve, pray with others etc) -Yes
-The idea of the priesthood keeps coming back- Yes (not commonly but it does)
-Attraction to celibate state - “For some people the idea of celibacy comes to mind even before the explicit idea of priesthood” - Yes
-Desire to give life for salvation of others - Yes
-A growing knowledge of the capacity to live the gift from God of lifelong celibacy- Yes
Sometimes (not commonly) I feel maybe I can be more for God without commitments of marriage… And love Him exclusively
A little background: I am currently in a relationship (have been 3 years) with this amazing girl who I love a lot. I am thinking of proposing soon and marrying.
We are both catholic and practice the faith.
I have had a strong experience of Jesus Christ’s victory in helping me overcome my addiction to pornography and teaching me to live chastely. I have never been happier and never thought I could live in the bliss of chastity. It is a miracle for me. And here I began to grow my relationship with God and to love Him!
I don’t want to propose until I am sure it is exactly what God wants… Because in the past I have given him no option and always prayed for a girlfriend (Which he so generously provided).
But I want to know I am doing only His will and not mine. And I want to be completely open to whatever he wants me to do, either consecrated or marriage…
I really love my girlfriend and am very happy with her, but sometimes wonder about giving myself exclusively to God,
What do you think?
Any comments are appreciated!